He looks away again with a quick nod. And he leaves the room, heading downstairs at a brisk pace. Making a beeline for the fireplace, he then looks under the low coffee tables and couches and between their cushions for the white handkerchief. He's about to ask a waitrat if it had come across one, when he finds it trapped under the foot of the couch that Jay had overturned. With a lift and a tug, he frees it. Shaking off the dust bunnies, he then looks at it, holding it in his hands--
--and he folds it up and tucks it into his pocket.
He just needed to have it back. That's all.
He goes back upstairs to Jay's room.
"Found it," he announces, forcing a bright note in his voice. "Sorry, that was rather ridiculous of me."
Jay arranges to have some supper brought up to them. A plater of cold meats and cheeses and bread. And a bottle of really good gin.
"Nothing ridiculous about, darling." Jay greets him with a smile, just a little forced himself. "I understand how it can be with something special to you." He gestures to the night-stand. The lamp has a two bracelets and key on a chair hanging from it.
"I'm fairly sure you've mentioned him, yes." Jay settles back on the couch, welcoming Emcee to join him if he wants to, figuring the couch is more relaxed than the bed for such conversations. "But just so you know, you don't want to talk about it, if you don't want to. You don't owe me anything, much less an explanation."
"No, I know," he says quietly. "I rarely ever talk about these things in a straightforward way because the truth is just so fucking ugly, and I hate that. It's so much nicer to paint pretty pictures and say that everything is all right.
"But I just thought I ought to mention Herman again because he is pretty much the reason that I'm not strung out of my mind right now. He at least deserves credit for that," he adds with a weak chuckle.
He toes his boots off and draws his feet up in a cross-legged position, feeling more comfortable that way.
"Yes. He was just always-- present. And so very patient with me. Ridiculously, extraordinarily so. Even when I said some horrible things to him and treated him like shit while I was--you know." He gestures at his head with a flutter of his fingers.
"They all were patient with me, really, my boys and girls. We all had our own problems to deal with, but somehow we helped each other though a very long and difficult year."
Jay gives him a gentle squeeze. "I'm very glad he was there for you. And that he never gave up on you." He nods to Emcee's arm, noting the age of the marks. "Are you... out of the woods?" No-one truly is. An addict is always an addict, even when they're clean for years.
He takes a sip of his drink and half-nods with a shrug.
"I seem to be. The last time I shot up was around two months ago. My arm gets itchy-- whether it's an actual itch or just a psychological one, I can't tell-- whenever I get an urge, so I wear that handkerchief as a reminder not to touch it. A while ago, Herman found me in the middle of-- some kind of fit, where I scratched myself so hard that I bled. He tied his handkerchief around my arm, and since then I've kept it on to try to sort of-- redirect my thoughts and energy. It's not always worked. But it's helped."
He pauses, taking another sip of gin.
"It was that fucking door. I used to have better control when I was able to come to Milliways regularly. There were much better distractions here. At home-- things got really fucking depressing, and I couldn't escape."
Jay nods and give Emcee a gentle squeeze. "He's ahead of his time, your Herman. In my time, addicts use elastic bands they can snap against their wrists when the urges get too strong."
"You're here now." He strokes Emcee's arm. "And you know I'll distract you as best I can."
Jay takes the invitation and kisses him slowly and sweetly, running a gentle hand through his hair. "I do my best." He'd like to be more than just a boytoy but he understands why Emcee would rather use the term than lover. "You deserve the best."
"That is a good point," he concedes. "But the universe doesn't care what any of us think either. Still, when nothing goes our way, we do manage to keep on doing whatever the fuck we want."
Draining his glass, he sets it aside before kissing him again. His kisses aren't sweet. They taste like gin.
"Then we make our own way." Jay mutters between gin soaked kisses, pulling Emcee into his arms. "And we take help from whoever is willing to offer it." Wealthy, willing boytoys included.
Shifting his legs out from under himself, he moves to straddle Jay's lap. He takes his face in his hands and kisses him deeply, passionately, with a slow-burning hunger.
Lips still locked, he runs his fingers through Jay's hair, one hand fisting in it at the back of his head, the other skimming down his neck and over his chest.
He starts to move his hips in slow, sensual rolls, grinding down on him.
After a some moments of intense kissing, Emcee breaks contact, and playfully presses a finger to Jay's lips.
He then leans back and peels his tank top off, flinging it away over his shoulder. Raising himself up onto his knees, he starts to undo his fly, flipping one button loose at a time, looking down at Jay with a lusty smile on his lips.
Emcee takes a moment to listen -- and a grin spreads across his face like honey.
Baby did a bad, bad thing indeed.
Teasingly leaving his fly undone, he leans on Jay's shoulders on his hands and starts to move his hips in tight little circles to the rhythm. Inching closer and closer to his face, until he can feel his breath on his lower belly.
And Jay's breathing fast enough to be felt as he watches Emcee dance. He rests his hands on the top of the couch, his arms spread. At least until Emcee's permission to touch.
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Date: 2016-01-16 02:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-16 02:49 am (UTC)--and he folds it up and tucks it into his pocket.
He just needed to have it back. That's all.
He goes back upstairs to Jay's room.
"Found it," he announces, forcing a bright note in his voice. "Sorry, that was rather ridiculous of me."
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Date: 2016-01-16 02:57 am (UTC)"Nothing ridiculous about, darling." Jay greets him with a smile, just a little forced himself. "I understand how it can be with something special to you." He gestures to the night-stand. The lamp has a two bracelets and key on a chair hanging from it.
"Here, come have a drink."
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Date: 2016-01-16 03:13 am (UTC)"Thank you, I would love one," he sighs, taking a glass pouring out a much-needed drink.
"Have I ever mentioned Herman to you?" he then asks, as he picks our a piece of cheese and nibbles at it.
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Date: 2016-01-16 03:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-16 04:42 am (UTC)"No, I know," he says quietly. "I rarely ever talk about these things in a straightforward way because the truth is just so fucking ugly, and I hate that. It's so much nicer to paint pretty pictures and say that everything is all right.
"But I just thought I ought to mention Herman again because he is pretty much the reason that I'm not strung out of my mind right now. He at least deserves credit for that," he adds with a weak chuckle.
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Date: 2016-01-16 04:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-16 05:12 am (UTC)"Yes. He was just always-- present. And so very patient with me. Ridiculously, extraordinarily so. Even when I said some horrible things to him and treated him like shit while I was--you know." He gestures at his head with a flutter of his fingers.
"They all were patient with me, really, my boys and girls. We all had our own problems to deal with, but somehow we helped each other though a very long and difficult year."
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Date: 2016-01-16 05:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-16 05:58 am (UTC)"I seem to be. The last time I shot up was around two months ago. My arm gets itchy-- whether it's an actual itch or just a psychological one, I can't tell-- whenever I get an urge, so I wear that handkerchief as a reminder not to touch it. A while ago, Herman found me in the middle of-- some kind of fit, where I scratched myself so hard that I bled. He tied his handkerchief around my arm, and since then I've kept it on to try to sort of-- redirect my thoughts and energy. It's not always worked. But it's helped."
He pauses, taking another sip of gin.
"It was that fucking door. I used to have better control when I was able to come to Milliways regularly. There were much better distractions here. At home-- things got really fucking depressing, and I couldn't escape."
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Date: 2016-01-16 06:14 am (UTC)"You're here now." He strokes Emcee's arm. "And you know I'll distract you as best I can."
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Date: 2016-01-16 06:33 am (UTC)"I know," he says softly. "Thank you."
Leaning against Jay's side, he turns his head to look at him and cups his cheek in his palm.
"Like I said, you are the best boytoy a man could have."
He grins, tipping his chin up to entice him into a kiss.
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Date: 2016-01-16 06:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-16 07:03 am (UTC)Even if the kisses are really sweet.
"Mm, what you say may not align with what the universe thinks, but as long as I get a few good things out of it," he says wryly.
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Date: 2016-01-16 07:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-16 09:06 am (UTC)"That is a good point," he concedes. "But the universe doesn't care what any of us think either. Still, when nothing goes our way, we do manage to keep on doing whatever the fuck we want."
Draining his glass, he sets it aside before kissing him again. His kisses aren't sweet. They taste like gin.
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Date: 2016-01-16 09:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-16 04:17 pm (UTC)Shifting his legs out from under himself, he moves to straddle Jay's lap. He takes his face in his hands and kisses him deeply, passionately, with a slow-burning hunger.
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Date: 2016-01-16 11:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-18 12:33 am (UTC)He starts to move his hips in slow, sensual rolls, grinding down on him.
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Date: 2016-01-18 02:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-18 04:55 am (UTC)He then leans back and peels his tank top off, flinging it away over his shoulder. Raising himself up onto his knees, he starts to undo his fly, flipping one button loose at a time, looking down at Jay with a lusty smile on his lips.
He's getting the special lap dance.
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Date: 2016-01-18 05:01 am (UTC)Thankfully the remote for the stereo is within reach and he flicks it in random and hopes.
By chance, the first song to come up is Chris Isaak's Baby did a bad bad thing.
Jay raises an eyebrow to see if Emcee approves.
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Date: 2016-01-18 05:32 am (UTC)Baby did a bad, bad thing indeed.
Teasingly leaving his fly undone, he leans on Jay's shoulders on his hands and starts to move his hips in tight little circles to the rhythm. Inching closer and closer to his face, until he can feel his breath on his lower belly.
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