Jay doesn't look up, rubbing the back of his eyes with the heel of his palm. "That I'm an idiot. That I'm so sorry."

He feels his voice break and fights not to let it out. He swallows and moves to take a sip of the now warm beer but stops himself. "I should have told you before that I owned Wonderland. I should have said no to Alice's suggestion before we got back here. I'm sorry. I have no excuse."